Prove to someone, anyone that you are strong enough, weather its you or anyone else that you are strong enough, that you have self control, that you demand someone care about you. that you are number one to someone. even if it is yourself, even if it is for yourself. start tomorrow and be strong. show them why you have a hard time getting work, doing work, ect. for good. just leave them forever so they will know you have been suffering with this forever….. thats why ou have always felt insufficient. they will get over it and passed it, you won’t.